The Girl Behind The Beam

As a young girl the wellness culture has always offered me a way to do more, consume more, learn more, in order to look better and as a result feel better. Throughout my life I always felt like I was chasing a key that would lead me to happiness. I thought that once I perfected my workouts, my eating, my morning routines I would finally be happy.

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I never used to question what I was being told. But eventually I got tired of what felt like a facade. I struggled (and still struggle) with my self-worth and what it means to be well. I kept seeing the same images of the ideal women and men posted over and over again. It seemed like everyone was telling me a new eating trend or workout that would help me be happy and look a certain way. Like that was the true end goal of wellness, not just feeling a bit better in my own skin. There was a disconnect between how I presented myself and how I actually felt. I felt like I was doing all the necessary steps to be well, but inside I wasn't any happier. 

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If the wellness culture seemed unattainable to me, I wondered how other people felt. I kept looking at the wellness culture for more authenticity, more vulnerability and for something that wouldn't change who I was. I wanted digestible and simple information that was routed in sustainability. I couldn't keep track of all of the different trends and fads. I wanted to know what people actually did to feel well. People who had full time jobs, and other commitments and could not spend money on a green juice a day. I wanted to know what was truly accessible and how wellness looked to different types of people with different backgrounds and values. 

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Through Beam Well I hope to change how we think about wellness. I want to try and make people feel a little bit more comfortable and confident in their own skin. I want to show that wellness doesn't equal happiness or morality and that there are a range of emotions one can and should feel everyday. None good or bad. I want to open the conversation up and show humanity and humility in a space that seems to have it all figured out.